I had a wonderful dream last night. Gerri was in my arms, and coming home to me. I had a successful adoption with few obstacles. She was all smiles and laughs, and somehow speaking to me in perfect English and calling me Mummy, which is what I think I will have her call me. I think this wonderful dream was brought on by all the talk with my wonderful coworkers yesterday morning. I was just getting off work (for those who don't know, I work in a hospital as a nurse and work 12.5 hour nights) and speaking to some of the wonderful ladies on day shift. Heidi, a fellow nurse, was telling me how she wants to set up weekly play dates with her youngest daughter Wendy and my Gerri...Wendy is just 6 months older than Gerri. Heidi was also telling me about a free adaptive preschool here in Nampa that she has her older daughter Brianna in...she says she is sure that Gerri would qualify. Very exciting news for me. She also told me that she is crocheting a blanket for Gerri...really brought tears to my eyes. Brenda, one of the day shift CNA's that is currently in school to become a nurse, slipped me $10 for my puzzle fundraiser (thanks, Brenda)! and was telling me of some wonderful resources for fun, healthy foods to feed kids. I cannot believe the outpouring of support and love I have received from my friends and family. You guys rock and will always be greatly appreciated!!!
I also cannot believe the love I feel for this little girl. I could easily stare at her picture for hours and just long to get my hands on her. I have so many things I have purchased for her...her car seat, stroller, dresser, clothes, toys...my step-sister Patti gave me a toddler bed for her which my sister Lori lovingly painted pale green. I have an old set of shelves that came from the cabin my mother and step-father used to own...my sister painted it lavender last weekend, and now it is in Gerri's room with all the books I have bought for her since I started this journey. My psych eval is next week. It is so nice to have things moving forward.
I come from a wonderful family. They have always managed to get by, but with not a lot extra. I had to work very hard to make it through college...not many in my family have been able to go at all. I did not go without in my childhood...we did not have many extras, but we had all we needed to survive. I am fortunate to be in a position where I can give my little girl things that I wanted that my parents just could not have afforded for me...like a pink princess room!! I had so much fun with this room.
I so look forward to my little girl being home. I have waited and prayed for this my whole life, and it is close to becoming a reality!!